Which one I can be?

 OR

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Just for fun.

Tiba-tiba rindu pada photoshop. Dah lama tak buat editing. Oh... photo editing is my hobby. :)

Picture's captured using HTC HD2

Left:

• Theme: Natural Flawless
• Focus: Eyes
• Major editing: Face area
• Major Adjustment: Level
• Additional Item: Fake eyelashes brush

Right:

• Theme: Beauty with Horror
• Focus: Lips and Eyes
• Major editing: Face and background
• Major Adjustment: Level and Replace color
• Additional Item: Fake eyelashes brush, scar brush, crack brush

It has been a year

30 October 2011 - It has been a year since I had my 1st flight, 1st time to go to the overseas, 1st time I feel I am leaving my most precious gifts in Malaysia.

OMG... how should I proceed with this writing when my eyes are filled with tears. During that last day in Malaysia, I was excited + happy. Siapa yang tak happy to get the opportunity to study and live in the overseas + it's during winter season.
But...
I forgot that...

• I was travelling ALONE - 1st experience + LONE RANGER!
• I am the 'GPS' in my family (yes.. they were sesat masa OTW balik)

During this time, I keep on thinking about negative thing which I don't want to list it out here. I will totally put the blame on me if something happen to them. After a few minutes, I keep myself calm. I pray for their safety and I hope Allah will protect them and keep them safe. I said to myself, how bad my feeling worrying about them, they feel more worry about me. Again I repeat... I was travelling alone!

Guess what, I was smiling while taking this picture. Masa ni pk seronok + excited je.

A couple of minutes later...

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I would like to make a confession, I cried non-stop since my final huggy wuggy time with my family. (It was the 1st time I felt the 'real' hugs from emak, ayah, and my brother... WHY it does happen masa nak fly? :/)

I passes the immigration, customs gate with huge cries! Masa lepas the 1st gate, on my way to aerotrain, I feel like to lari back and tak nak fly. Things that stop me from doing it are; my parents have PAID for the flight ticket, I have to WORK there, FRANCE GOVERNMENT has arranged everything for me, I am carrying the RESPONSIBILITY from my supervisor, mine and my family's DIGNITY, I want to keep myself AWAY from peoples that hurt me a lot here. This is one of the thing that I am able to do - study in France!

Dah la kene 2-3 times kena lalu gate, scan, tanggal beg, bukak beg laptop. I still remember ada sorang pegawai perempuan tu senyum je when she saw me crying. I stopped nanges masa jalan masuk dalam flight. Cari tempat.

Then dah pakai seat belt semua, I read buku doa yg emak bekal kan. During in the airport, she sempat mark some of the pages yang penting untuk dibaca. I have started to cry again while reading that book. Masa tu... I was looking outside of the mirror n rasa nak terjun je. Maybe this is one of the reason tingkap kapal terbang is sealed!

Whatever it is, that was such a great memory I have ever had. It makes me appreciate and love my family more!

"You will never appreciate what you have until you lose it!" - Eat that words Shakirah! Thank Allah these 'gifts' are taken away within just for 2 months. I believe everything is happening for a reason.

Until now, I feel phobia when my parents are sending me to the airport. Walaupun hanya pergi ke KL, the feeling tu rasa macam nak fly jauh je.

Dear Emak, ayah, and Bae, I LOVE 3 of you so much!

Sekian daripada saya, Nur Shakirah yang mata sudah bengkak-bengkak menanges sambil menulis post kali ni. This is one of the most honest post I have ever written.

Good night!

Japanese Green Tea

Last few days I went to a shopping mall and suddenly I was thinking about green tea. I went to a shop to get a box of it. The first time I drink this tea was during a workshop held in Penang last year if I am not mistaken. That was the first time I drink green tea and I have fallen in love with the taste.



Based on the label (biggest font written in japanese), this tea leaves’ type is Sencha (煎茶^?, decocted tea). This is the typical type of Japanese green tea.

Why green tea and not black tea??
Let me share with you the health effects of this type of tea (summarized from wikipedia).

1. Antioxidant – more than black tea
   
2. reduce heart disease – by reducing cholesterol
   
3. prevent dental cavities – one of the reason is because we drink green tea without sugar
   
4. prevent kidney stones
   
5. prevent cancer
   
6. Improving urinary and brain function
   
7. eliminating indigestion
   
8. preventing fatigue
   
9. reduce weight

Suggestion: 4 cups of green tea per day, hot, without sugar

source: http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Green_tea

alhamdulillah

Syukur ke hadrat Illahi kerana memberi peluang kepada salah seorang hamba Beliau untuk merasai hidup merantau di negara orang walaupun tempoh yang diberikan hanya sekejap.
Mencabar? YA / OUI. Untuk menempuhi 'ombak' tu memang mencabar. Tapi selepas kita bertemu semula dengan aliran yang tenang, kita akan recall back saat2 critical tu and kita akan tersenyum kerana kita masih boleh berdiri dan bernyawa setelah apa yg kita dah redah. Tapi dalam suasana yang tenang tu, persediaan utk mengharungi ombak yg seterusnya sngtlah perlu sebab kita xtahu apa yg akan muncul di hadapan kita. Kuat, berusaha, berdoa, bertawakal. InshaAllah kita akan berjaya harungi semua 'ombak' tu. Walau saat ketika diri berasa sangatlah lemah, rapuh, menahan sebak dan sakit hingga menitis air mata, nangislah. Air mata yang selama ini di tahan bukan petanda lemah tetapi satu takat utk menguatkan diri menghadapi 'ombak' yg lebih besar.

:)

Alhamdulillah

Ku.. bersyukur pada mu Illahi – Syukur. Sing by Jamal Abdillah.

Ya Allah, ku bersyukur pada mu kerana Engkau kurniakan keluarga yang tidak penah jemu for supporting myself from every aspect.

Wahai Shakirah, jangan la lupa jasa keluarga.

Family will never abandon you. They are the persons…

… who feel happier for your happiness

… who feel more sad for your sadness

… who feel proud of your successfulness

… who will never jealous of your achievement

… who will try their best to fulfill your desire

… who will always with you in any kind of situations

…… THEY WILL ALWAYS BE THERE NO MATTER WHAT.

 

I am proudly to say… “Dear mak, ayah, bae… I LOVE YOU ALL. Thanks for everything”.